It’s been a challenging month for Kris Jenner since her ex-husband Bruce Jenner publicly announced that he is transitioning from male to female.
She puts on a good front, but how is she really handling it?
"It’s hard for me to really believe it’s happening," admitted Kris on last weekend’s Keeping Up with the Kardashians: About Bruce special episode.
"I’m trying so hard to process my pain. It’s a struggle."
Complicating matters further is the duo’s divorce.
"There was a certain sense of, ‘What right does she have to be upset [about Bruce Jenner’s sexual reassignment]?’ now." says a source.
"It was extremely awkward for her."
Then there is the lingering question of just how much she knew about Bruce’s desire to become a woman and at what point in their marriage.
If you watch Keeping Up with the Kardashians online, you know she observed Bruce’s cross-dressing, yet says she "never saw this coming."
"Part of the problem is [he] never explained!"
By all accounts, she was pretty blindsided.
Behind the cameras, Kris "always dismissed and laughed off questions about Bruce’s more feminine appearance," a production source tells People.
"Kris was always the one to talk about how manly Bruce is … even after Bruce was spotted with pink nail polish, Kris just laughed it off."
The 59-year-old Momager has been "more accepting" of the issue in recent weeks, though, leaning on her kids and boyfriend Corey Gamble.
"He makes her feel good about herself and her life," says the source about Gamble, 34, whom she is reportedly back together with at this time.
Her relationship with Bruce is also on the mend.
Both have praised the other lately, and she told him on Sunday’s episode, "You were a great dad, friend and partner. I just want you to be happy."
